Thoughts In A Wandering Mind

                           Well, the regular routine is filled with lot of activity these days. Since the past few months, I have been working with religious tenacity. The consequence of these actions is I has entered another burn-out phase. In the midst of all the burning out and grinding, I miss the purpose sometimes and just go through the routines mechanically. All these acts should not be for mere salary. Though salary is important there must be a higher motive as well. Among the many motives including writing this blog, one of the motive which keeps me amused as well is teaching. Teaching or giving a session works for me and I work for teaching.                            While going through this line sometime back, I ...

                        It has been few months since I joined my present job. I am pausing every now and then, taking a moment to step back and contemplate what is going on. It still amazes me that all this good is happening to me in the backdrop of all the worst that had happened to me in the recent past. Not many months ago, my face portrayed hopelessness and my work gave me nothing monetarily. I tried so hard for a job that the universe must have conspired to line up all the necessary things and put in place, give a 360 degree turn to my fortunes, life and reinforced my belief in the ultimate justice. If you fight for what you want and keep on marching like a soldier, you will find your destination you deserve. I felt home at work and think my final destination is reached, right in the middle of the home nation and home town. I am in a good company and in the company...

                      There has been a lapse of posting due to reasons beyond my control. The past few weeks, there has been a change of guard. I am into a job which has me occupied for most of my time, keeping me in a state of low-lying slumber. But the continuity of the actions is the wrath of hell upon me. No matter how much I give, I will be drawn into giving much more. I had been looking for a proper break since long which has eluded me ever since. You will work with much less worries, tensions, stress and more energy after a meaningful pause. Instead I am left to worry each single day and work round the year. I am yet to know when I will be freed from this bondage. I am off track or not living a normal life since last few years. Rather than it being my choice, I am forced to lead such a life by circumstances and people around. Because of this crime perpetrated against me by an u...

                         The traversals in the circular rotations that I have been making for a while took me to the starting point again, this time giving me a re-birth. I am born again at the home location from the point where I left with same body and age. I still cannot believe that I returned home from the bloody mission and start all over again as if nothing has happened. It is a miracle that I had been lifted from the myriad problems. This didn’t happen from my own personal efforts since I went as far as the point of no-return. All the collective prayers must have been answered which resulted in unfurling of events leading up to my present state of reincarnation. It once again proves that when you work for the greater good, the same will be reciprocated for your own welfare. I worked for the people and it is the same people who erected me from a collapse. This can be a lesson for everyone who does not cross the ...

                      I am yet to come to terms with the kind of dawn which dawn upon me after sleeping through the grueling night. The night is the gone-by foreign stint. As the situation unfolds finally, the truth in the hindsight is I had to pay for all the actions and adventures done till date. After the impactful stint, I cannot simply return to the normal life without completely getting over the past. I had given way too much to pull it all back. Before setting the ball in motion, I knew the journey can take me to anywhere and saw little hope of ever returning home as an unscathed warrior. By virtue of good timely deeds and well-wishes, I kept up the ante, went to places and returned safely to home. All the losses, credit and huge financial deficit are paid for the achievements, bare minimum physical and mental well-being.         ...

                             When you cannot control your life, it will control you. Much worse is when people control you. I knew of the first paradigm long before and accepted it as a limitation which needs to be improved. The notion of destiny taking the reins is not encouraging and the solution can be arrived through some good guidance and blessings from elderly masters who have complete mastery over their mind, body and soul. To throw some more light of what I don’t have, there is no control on my thoughts at least, leave alone actions. Whenever I am supposed to deliver, all I utter is whatever that comes to my mouth. My body parts move involuntarily without any sync with inner conscience and mind. All the coordinators are loosely coupled and every entity behaves on its own. These internal deficiencies are extrapolated to the outer segment of li...

                         There have been many trips made to the U.S and each has ended in a negative note in some way. The last one was negative and big failure because of my incompetence to befriend and live with any member of opposite sex. Commoners can afford mistakes but not someone who is responsible and in a position to cast his influence on the public. I knew the importance of this and its relationship to the success but neglected for long. For my purpose, this is the needful which I never did. Before commencement of each stint, this has to be included in the homework but I became a foreigner in the home place and reflected the same by becoming a foreign object in the foreign nation. No stint is complete and produce any fruitful results on a small or large scale with these tasteless and unidimensional lives. Thanks to the person that I am, I can only portray...