Continuation of the New Job and Review of Foreign Failure


                        It has been few months since I joined my present job. I am pausing every now and then, taking a moment to step back and contemplate what is going on. It still amazes me that all this good is happening to me in the backdrop of all the worst that had happened to me in the recent past. Not many months ago, my face portrayed hopelessness and my work gave me nothing monetarily. I tried so hard for a job that the universe must have conspired to line up all the necessary things and put in place, give a 360 degree turn to my fortunes, life and reinforced my belief in the ultimate justice. If you fight for what you want and keep on marching like a soldier, you will find your destination you deserve. I felt home at work and think my final destination is reached, right in the middle of the home nation and home town. I am in a good company and in the company of finest individuals which I think is a rare coming together in the home nation. The strength of these collective efforts and the impact it produces can alter people, places, governments, nations and the world. I am stuck in the middle of such a phenomenon which has the potential to produce implausible results.

                       Well, if I keep my success in the ‘third world’ home nation aside, what still puzzles me is that I failed in much better country for not once but thrice which concluded and put a stamp on my face that I am unworthy of any work and sent me back packing. This may not be entirely true but there are few perspectives through which my recent foreign trip has to be looked upon. It might be the script of the destiny that I had to fail. The biggest complaint because of which I failed is lack of employment. Sure, I have my limitations and couldn’t adapt but it is not at all justifiable for the cause of earning a living. My present employer accepted me for what I am without any conditions and great expectations. If I can get it here why can’t there. I wonder if U.S isn’t mature enough to this level of acceptance or is there something I am missing when it comes to giving a job. In all the outings, I made a zillion calls and attempts on a regular basis at getting hired and all those were met with soft dismissals or rejections. This is a failure at accepting me for what I am and honoring me for who I am. I lead a pathetic , wretched life without any respect which is similar to living in any third world country or worse than that. After all the attempts and tiring walks, I was left with no other option than to return. Giving a few hours of work for a living entity is not a rocket science to surmount if only there is a will to help. No one is willing to provide employment and instead immersed in the cruel act of enjoying at the expense of my problems and compounding the existing problems. I am asked to buck up, prepare and prepare well but no one bothered to come down a little for me. Instead of trying to resolve my issues and lift me to a safe zone, I am left to operate with risk, labelled as a terrorist and my work is compared to acts of terror. I am forced to worry about everything when there is nothing much to feel anxious.

                      The state of mind was never clear and stable but always fearful, sad, depressed, dejected and in constant despair. That I was prompted to book a ticket and cancel 4 to 5 times in a span of 5 months when everything is alright and nothing much to worry tells the state of mind I has been in. There is no one to my rescue with soothing words and nothing was done to make me normal. Instead, those who supported were also singled out, targeted and labeled as supporting acts of terror. It is always an uphill battle for securing the dismal position or to surrender to the multitudes. When I am degrading day by day, I received some ‘I am sorry for your state’ responses which only added insult to the injury. When you are falling from the top of the hill, you lend a helping hand and pull the person to save him. As against doing that, you just stand beside, played mere spectator and say sorry. What kind of culture is that? Our country celebrates a visitor and treats him like a God as in Athithi Devobhava. You are indifferent to the sufferings of the visitor and treated badly leave alone good treatment. You don’t need advanced versions when you can’t get the basics right. I must concede, however, that I went third time knowingly that these may happen to me which I wanted to happen thinking that it might work for me. It did worked out for me in the end.

                      I am not supposed to vent all this on the big nation but just speaking my mind like a kid. Thanks to the recent developments around, we are living in a much younger world i.e. all the adults are appearing like kids. There is a saying which I read in the young age – Child is the father of the man which means what we do as kids will carry on in the rest of adult life. This is true in the present context as we are not at all ceasing to act like kids. When our souls are cleansed and our thoughts are purified, we become the purest form of living beings on Earth who are none other than kids. This transformation is felt across everywhere. One of the living example of this metamorphosis is the President of a Great nation which I don’t want to mention. I felt many of his actions, statements are gullible, resemble naivety and those of children.

                      I descended to my present city and living here for some time after my foreign stint. It has been few years post division and both the states are marching towards progress. Hard working and dedicated individuals bring results not just to the family, immediate family but to the community as a whole. When individuals grow through their work over many years, nations will invariably grow. The result of the work of any individual must be to see a small change in the positive direction in the community during his or her lifetime. I am happy to see Metro is added during my lifetime which altered the city a little bit.  

                      It is interesting to see what power can do to an individual or to a group. Hitherto a fierce critic of the establishment who constantly spit fire on the government, taking over the reins has made the Chief Minister of the new state into a worthy and acceptable person. All the fire power of the past must have been aiding in the present in the quest for development. As can be seen, agitations and movements for a prolonged duration when directed properly are good for the society in the long run. The state boundaries which have been formed as a result of these movements must not be physical or divisive instead a mere administrative mark. This might be the safeguard behind the formation of several new districts as well. Hopping on to the other side, the residual A.P. is in need of construction of a new capital. This is not an easy task with the current administration still juggling over land acquisition and temporary premises. It is not an easy sight when someone is working for the growth of both the states. I am sustained by these states and indebted to its people. All my actions over and above were all due to its people and their support.  


























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