Review of A Completed Phase and Few 'Degrading' Insights

                      I am yet to come to terms with the kind of dawn which dawn upon me after sleeping through the grueling night. The night is the gone-by foreign stint. As the situation unfolds finally, the truth in the hindsight is I had to pay for all the actions and adventures done till date. After the impactful stint, I cannot simply return to the normal life without completely getting over the past. I had given way too much to pull it all back. Before setting the ball in motion, I knew the journey can take me to anywhere and saw little hope of ever returning home as an unscathed warrior. By virtue of good timely deeds and well-wishes, I kept up the ante, went to places and returned safely to home. All the losses, credit and huge financial deficit are paid for the achievements, bare minimum physical and mental well-being.  

                     The truth further strike me if the decision to travel to the foreign land and the moments that led up to that decision was properly arrived. How can a person travel on three different occasions and return more than empty handed kicking away all the personal objectives? Each time I planned to build savings but ended up piling on huge credit. If the decision is correct and proper, I would not have travelled in first place and never failed if I reached there. I can swear I am implicated in one such mission which has no personal value. Due to some reason or the other, I fell in a never-ending bad infinite loop of travelling back again and again which has to be broken before things get completely out of hand. I cannot be in a position to pay something which I cannot afford to.

                      Despite all these hard realizations, I am not on another similar path but travelling and building on a new road laid out by me. This is nothing short of effort which takes to winning the elections and running the government. When you are on a correct path of your own by being a trailblazer and setting the rule of the land, every step becomes difficult with a lot of traction going against you. I have been attracting a lot of traction which vindicates the veracity of my journey and reminds me to perform or perish since there are many others who can take the traction and do justice for all the preparation and resistance. I cannot linger around taking all the spotlight and doing nothing.

                     Since the last few years, I am stuck between the nationalities of two nations. It becomes easy if you are on one side and becomes difficult when you are on a dual role and take sides alternatively. As can be seen, collaboration and partnership is in the best interests of either sides. The magnitude of work done and the cause amplified cannot be achieved without the help of the other nation. Taking the side of one and working for its benefit is normal but working on either sides for the benefit of everyone takes some special apprenticeship. This is hoped to sustain and scale in the near future.  

                      Though my departure from U.S is normal, it is seen in the light of making a statement and hurting the citizens of the nation and as deflecting to the other side. The momentum shifts and a lot of feelings are bruised in a simple transition. This is not very easy to do time and again and I blame my own self for being in the position to inflict so much meaning in an otherwise return of a simple failure.  

                      Of all the vices in the world, the most fearful are humiliation and torture. Both these treatments await me since some time and I try to evade them to the best possible extent. I cannot escape from the clutches of the liability forever before someone doles out these in good amount. Its high time that I mend my ways and prevent them. Many people in the U.S find comfort when someone or the other tortures me. Though it is only a natural consequence of my actions, I am relieved that it did not materialized completely. I also feel people feeling dejected when I got some support and comfort. When I am going through a lot of difficulties and problems, instead of lending a helping hand, this kind of outlook sickened me and became one of the reasons to return home.

                      For the past few years, I was set out on a task to belittle or shame famous brands of the world. At first, I was associated with the great nation of the world – US which is the leading brand of the times. My travelling to the nation and presence over there means any ordinary person with less than ordinary capabilities have started to dream about travelling to U.S. Few people who managed me expressed qualms about my port of entry and wonder if I am permitted legally into the country. I was successful in devaluing the image of the nation. After reaching there, I began to associate myself with all the cities of huge repute like New York, New Jersey, Boston, Houston, Atlanta etc. and made all the citizens residing over there to lower the heads in shame. While the good people over there tolerated my presence, lifestyle and strange activities and encouraged me, the rest of the world still wonders what this poorest of the guys had to do with the super power when there are many other qualified nations and individuals who vie for the nation’s interests and attention. I associated with a lot of finest and graceful people and wasted a lot of their time in the partnership. They might be better off without my presence in their lives. I associated with the biggest names in airlines industry and came a complete cropper in aping its worthy passengers. I rubbed shoulders with the most common name in software industry and made those extraordinary people look ordinary and belittled its brand value by my presence. While I truly belonged nowhere in long run, I assumed and dreamed of success in most impractical places. These people and places must have been fed up of me and might plan to get rid of me completely before any further defamation.