Review of the Foreign Phase and Few Regretful Insights

                         There have been many trips made to the U.S and each has ended in a negative note in some way. The last one was negative and big failure because of my incompetence to befriend and live with any member of opposite sex. Commoners can afford mistakes but not someone who is responsible and in a position to cast his influence on the public. I knew the importance of this and its relationship to the success but neglected for long. For my purpose, this is the needful which I never did. Before commencement of each stint, this has to be included in the homework but I became a foreigner in the home place and reflected the same by becoming a foreign object in the foreign nation. No stint is complete and produce any fruitful results on a small or large scale with these tasteless and unidimensional lives. Thanks to the person that I am, I can only portray a public figure in front of and behind the scenes. After going through hardships multiple times and getting a chance to make it in the western nation, I saw through the rare chances go by. I remained an eastern person never adopting in the western nation. You cannot sit outside the boundaries and change something, rather assimilate yourself and change will be effected. The net result is the big personal failure.  

                          To be honest to myself, I knew this coming and that I would not succeed before embarking the trip. But still I went in for the want of rejection and subsequent trials accompanying it. Though fictitious and imaginative, I cannot deny the narrative of my influence which is way too far beyond the self. Thus the purpose became making an attempt at the larger objective leaving my own never-going-to-succeed case aside. I spoke about the sacrifices to be made for seeing a more unified world with an established and proper order. The collective responsibility of all the leaders of the world to work tirelessly and reach out to all the sections of the society can be a lofted ideal in a utopic world. I can reiterate that when you work unceasingly far beyond the period of your own good, this ideal can be a reality. When good work happens over a period of time, people across the boundaries gets attracted slowly and you become the binding force. Being a person who is always in focus, I hope there is contribution from my part through this foreign stint for integration and inclusion.

                          The last stint is peculiar and I did not go through this alone, thankfully; there are a number of people who supported me throughout. From the well-established expats of Indian origin to colleagues, employers, staff working from India have all come out of their own way and backed me in this journey. Otherwise who would even listen to nomadic person akin stranger? A lot of risks were shared and they saw me achieving much more than what I think of myself. Any doubts which I have to my limited vision regarding the path chosen were allayed at times by the enthusiastic response I saw in the surroundings. The aspirations of the expats in helping me out took reality, despite to a limited extent.

                         At this space, let me put some more points regarding the local Americans. The involvement by them reached up to laying the canvas for my painting for which I would be grateful. Other than that, I was never reached personally in any of the ways. I struggled for every single need of mine.  Though there are good vibes around and wished for my well-being and helping me out, help never arrived physically in any way. There is nothing more ironic than the feeling in the rich nation, where all the wealthy people aspired to give me money but never happened in reality; where all the employers with abundance of jobs aspired to give me a job but never in reality. I cannot entirely lay the blame on my limited capabilities alone in this regard. Bridging the gap between the haves and have not's is still work in progress. This can never become a reality in a laid-back, unconcerned society without collective aspirations and great work to that end.                      

                       There are still some lingering questions if I could have fight harder and stayed longer. The reality is, I am content with the happenings thus far and do not intend to push more to the point of breaking. I fought for more than 150 days and happy that it is not just 15 days. I still remember the first day itself when all the demons descended upon me after arrival in airport. It took some time and a clear head to fight those and get to home.

                        To many individuals residing in the foreign nation, both ordinary and educated, my stint might seem disruptive and chaotic due to the sudden departure from the country and due to the impact I might have had. But to the extent of my knowledge, I came fully stuffed and emptied it all here, worked in same way through out in the better interests of the nation. Such high intense benevolent work cannot sustain for long. Rather than feeling for all the good being done and seeing it in the positive, few point it out for some relatively small side-effects. At least one is expected to brace up for some mess, clean up and return to normal being.

                        For all the affinity with the foreign nation, my presence in New Jersey, New York stands out. Any kind of work done here will be resonated around the world. This relation still amazes me. If not for my inefficiency, a lot can be accomplished from that high pedestal and with huge powers. I regret for not being circumspect enough and active in pursuing the deeds. I could have written posts on varied topics every week or alternate week. There is no time constraint and I always worked at my slow leisure pace due to lack of any formal work. In the end it proved costly for no discipline and following no particular pattern in rendering formal work which resulted in not writing more often.

                         From the top of the world, I descended to the top of the nation. I again regret for not staying there for some time when the whole nation watched with interest for the past few months. I would have touched all over the nation from this point but instead scrambled against it. Getting down in New Delhi, I saw nothing different and illuminating which driven me.  The finely administered roads and pre-paid taxi are tough to miss. The proof that the whole nation is watching than acting is the growth rate of mere 6%. Hopefully, the heroic efforts of few individuals will be inspired and replicated by more common people to push these indicators further.