Review Of An Uncontrolled Life and Few 'Unified' Insights

                            When you cannot control your life, it will control you. Much worse is when people control you. I knew of the first paradigm long before and accepted it as a limitation which needs to be improved. The notion of destiny taking the reins is not encouraging and the solution can be arrived through some good guidance and blessings from elderly masters who have complete mastery over their mind, body and soul. To throw some more light of what I don’t have, there is no control on my thoughts at least, leave alone actions. Whenever I am supposed to deliver, all I utter is whatever that comes to my mouth. My body parts move involuntarily without any sync with inner conscience and mind. All the coordinators are loosely coupled and every entity behaves on its own. These internal deficiencies are extrapolated to the outer segment of life, rendering it on the loose. More than anything, this has got to do with the background of work which the person inherited, which also points to the amount of work and practice left to be done to reach the state of complete opposite.

                             The hidden shortcoming came out long before and the second paradigm came out in the recent past. I already left to destiny without ever making any effort to take it back and people also joined the destiny to play with me like a football, hitting wherever they want to. From a small detail to all the turns of my living, everything was affected by these external forces who control me like a puppet. My every step is being monitored, results of these actions are being tracked, judgements are passed and powers are leveraged to influence me in all possible ways. There will be good men or well-wishers who exert upon me in a fruitful way but there are also evil minds at work who might conspire in a negative way. Amid all these different kinds of kicks to different corners, I am abiding in the direction of few, resisting a few to safeguard my position and existence.

                            There can be no one like me who had to move places constantly for a living. Over the last couple of years this has become a normal and aggravated recently. I know this is not something which has to be taken lightly. Not only I am hounded but those who harbor me are also put under pressure. You can only stay away from danger for a little time before raising your hands and surrender. You cannot expect a person with a good record and who can be counted to deliver much more to be without essentials. I had given up everything in line of duty and reached the level of being reduced to nothing. It might be only a while before time strips me of everything.

                           There are different kinds of individuals you come across. Those from the home nation can be classified into three in terms of their outlook towards giving. There will be some who are very self-possessed that they contribute nothing to the second person. There will be some who secure their personal and financial well-being and does an iota to the society. Compared to what they have it’s the tip of iceberg. There will be some real heroes who does everything freely to the outside world and lose their own well-being in the process. While many Indians fall in the first category, a few fortunate ones come under second category. I was thought to be extremely fortunate with all that I had but not and thrown to the last category. This is also the result of being in the prime state of personal manifestation. The inner being - that I do little to myself for the sake of others - came out in all glory. Hope this spreads like virus and infects many more to follow suit.

                           Since last many years, I had been under spotlight and doing work which is impressive. This has reached a state of saturation with the ‘impressive’ quotient reaching new heights and never receding. This is only a side-effect and I never work only to impress. Though you like to be in that position, it becomes unbearable over time. Looking from this angle, there is a need to do some meaner stuff for a significant period of time to nullify this quotient. A person cannot always live in the purple patch in terms of name and fame but also requires a dark phase of infamy. I had one such phase long back during my intermediate education and waiting for another one to ‘occur to me’ since I cannot do it all by myself. Many successful people wade through these phases regularly in day to day living and does not require longer run in either of those.

                           My journey from U.S to India took me directly to the two-states. I came back to the point from where it all started in a matter of days. Though I am happy to stay in this city, there are some negatives as well. A negative is the city gives me a free hand to do whatever I wish to. Despite being nothing wrong with that, you end up doing things which you should not because you are not warned in advance of the repercussions. This is how I did the home work and went to U.S third time.

                           There are many other burning issues which are spread across the nation and needed an intervention. A two-states is in the making in the great state of West Bengal which follows eastern principles. Though this is different than the complex problem of A.P, the language in the situation and morals will be the same. Any state should not be divided into two unless otherwise divided for administrative purpose on mutually agreed terms. It is hoped that the people of Gorkhaland find a best alternative than a new state and the present day agitations are subsided. A solution to these agitations would be to create a proxy state with full administrative set-up and powers but still making it part of parent state.  A number of committees and panels to safeguard the interests of the separatists can be formed with full autonomous powers. The chief of the movement can also be made a CM or deputy CM. But the rapport between the center and state is also not very good for a meaningful dialogue, purposeful interference and subsequent steps with level headedness because these issues need to be sorted out by taking all the forces into consideration.