Thoughts In A Wandering Mind

                  Since the beginning of yet another episode in the home nation, there is hardly any view to see other than pitch black hopelessness which gave fuel to past post of complaints. Initially, the thought is to create some laughter of how a loser would whine and point against everything but it slipped out of control and turned out to be more serious. As always, the objects of complain did nothing compared to what I did to myself. There seemed to be a change is perspective and people are more willing to help me. But I had been completely sunk in the ocean and seeing pitch black since last year or so. No matter how hard you try to help me, I will find a reason to keep me unenthusiastic and unhappy. The bottom line is, to limit the damage inflicted by multitudes over a period of time by a zilch and not to keep me insane, I was given a job in an unassuming company. I am not complaining f...

                      Let me put it straight – no one must have gone through as much as I went through in the past few months and still march on after picking up all this dust. If you put on a performance of a life time, it will sustain you for life. But I had to perform in such a way day-in and day-out for my sustenance. Every day is a new blank page and a new such script waiting to be written. I wonder if life is supposed to beat you up so hard without any break and a dawn. I had been taken to a ride similar to riding on a 30% healthy horse with a speed similar to a 200% fit one. By targeting it on and on, this 30% will eventually become zero without reaching its own goals. This kind of heavy, impactful and bulldoze living cannot sustain for long which succumbs to falling in status or ranks. I think the art of living (which I don’t know a bit) or the prominent culture should ch...

                  I left the place I thought has the ecosystem to sustain me and make me successful. The place had made all the efforts but I became too big and heavy to see the efforts find a fruitful result. The world is a tough place to live in and unless the person has all the required hardware, it becomes more and more challenging to pass through the hurdles of all the phases of life. Thanks to the software generation and the nations which religiously worked to provide the breeding ground for this new world, there is little avenue of hope and a freeway for all those with the softer, finer qualities. And when the person becomes too soft for this new world so much so that things are not happening here also, he need to take a rocket instead of aeroplane to another planet for onward journey and exploration.               ...

                  There is no trouble in treading a road less taken. But the chances are after a certain point you are on your own and may reach the point of no return. The path may be so convoluted, lengthy and poses lot of hurdles that you damage yourself in the process beyond repair of continuing forward. If this is taken up by a person of some importance followed by people with hate and love then the situation becomes helter-skelter and intricate to resolve. It is similar to boarding a Titanic on captain’s promise and expecting to reach the other end. It cannot happen that a person of importance can find himself in the middle of nowhere.                   This also tells the importance of following the foot-steps of people who practice time-tested methods which is always in the better interest of all. Th...

                   Since the last many days of my stay in the new place, I more often than not felt the place and people are worth the effort put into reach here. This is to reiterate that my presence in this location is no joke or coincidence but more a result of enduring process. This is again a big milestone given my background and capabilities. People tend to reach this kind of position after slowly growing in two to three generations. But I leapfrogged in no time with bare minimum support by working tirelessly and inadvertently following all the shortcuts. Though this is a questionable path with all the risks involved, this is the only path I had for my journey. Giving what it takes is more important than time spent to give.                    The multitudes and even I thought about enjoy...

                                              The last sojourn in the home nation came to a halt after the journey resumed in the foreign nation. Though I never intended it to be this way, this is all I had in the script written for me. I still remember the battered condition in which I returned home few months back. From then on, the drive to perform all the tasks in such a state and be where I am once again is money required to meet simple daily needs. The fairy tale story back home in the interim comprises of unintended well-executed actions which were accomplished by commuting through bikes, buses, trains, cars, autos etc. Gods hand took me to all the places and left me where I am at present. I think the final destination is reached literally and figuratively, since I am l...

                 The much frightened period with never ending ordeals, which are talked about in this space, finally lapsed sometime back. This also paused my journey in the foreign land and resumed it in the native land. Though I only gave into the mission half-heartedly, there is a faint hope of success which eventually eluded. The only positive outcome is I at least became successful in my failure. I failed for good and hardly did I ever imagined that I would return to my native place with everything intact. Through God’s grace and required support, this became possible without much worry. Otherwise, there are let downs around with all that at stake including time, money and effort.                   Though I do not imagine the magnitude of success of my trip, I would delve on my personal failure. Though I periodic...