Review of a Serial and Start of a New Episode

                 The much frightened period with never ending ordeals, which are talked about in this space, finally lapsed sometime back. This also paused my journey in the foreign land and resumed it in the native land. Though I only gave into the mission half-heartedly, there is a faint hope of success which eventually eluded. The only positive outcome is I at least became successful in my failure. I failed for good and hardly did I ever imagined that I would return to my native place with everything intact. Through God’s grace and required support, this became possible without much worry. Otherwise, there are let downs around with all that at stake including time, money and effort.

                  Though I do not imagine the magnitude of success of my trip, I would delve on my personal failure. Though I periodically day-dreamed of accomplishing the purpose of my foreign trip, I eventually scripted a failure unknowingly. Though you always get a second chance to make up for the loss, I am not sure if could get it. Not every failure is accidental or overnight. It is through a series of minor deviations happening at regular intervals outnumbering the events happening for a success. Those are:

1.      My conduct and capabilities hardly got acceptance or convinced the people that I belong to the place.

2.      I am also incompetent and could not convince the interviewers that I has what it takes.

3.      The hurdles to get into a job remained highly insurmountable and impractical to overcome.

                 Though these concerns are always at the back of the mind, there is hope in the other corner as well which is all that has driven me. I relied on the support of many people and expected some more help in getting a job. But this was not meant for me. After all, you believe in the helping hand of the rich, strong and well-to-do coming to the aid of a struggling poor fellow. Though the venture is a failure on a personal front, in the end I am pleased at the way things have panned and experience gained. Towards the end, I felt returning to the home nation as the only option to survive. At that point, every road seems to be reaching the end and this is the only alternative for journey. From this space, I thank everyone who led me to it. If not my success, at least my safety was taken care of.

                  I was lifted from the quagmire of problems and felt happy for returning home. The last few days were spent similar to a prisoner who is going to be released after a harsh sentence. The journey back home was a feeling of mission fulfilled at the macro level. That I had been to a most advanced nation, did few things on my own beating the generic ways, went to places and worked hard righteously against all odds.  But there are always concerns as to how my life will be after I returned. In addition, there are stories of people subjected to ill-treatment after returning to home nations. My fate is laid out differently. People welcomed me and felt an iota of pity initially. In the comfort of home, I dreamed of resting completely but there is no real respite. Goals keep on popping and I went on chasing them.

                  You always feel for the homeland and cultivate a wish to contribute when you are in a better place with an opportunity to do better things. For all that I had seen, experienced, received and went through, it will bear fruit when the contents is used to good effect in the home land. I made the most of this opportunity in the past few months by visiting places, talking to people and giving interviews at companies. It is a different story that I did not get selected in any of these interviews. Nevertheless, I keep on trying and my search for an office seat is still on.

                   At large, I found few interesting perspectives on my return to India. In the airport, I saw an ad promoting an event in the neighbor ‘sun rise’ state. This implies the 2 states are in peace and ease with each other. A welcome sign and the topic of the space sometime back came to the fore. Here I am to add my two cents on the prevailing atmosphere. Cooperation between neighbor states and taking home advantages that comes along with statehood are vital and paramount to mask the side effects of division. The demand and agitation for a new state will only be justified and meaningful when it drives the growth and unlocks the potential of the land as a whole. This divisional set-up which traded unity need to inherently fasten the growth meeting the requirements of the time. After formation, the states need to have a strong foundation to build upon a better future. It is up to the work of the first few leaders to lay that foundation and usher in an aura of goodwill between the people.