Thoughts In A Wandering Mind

                  Talk is always cheap. One of the downsides of writing this blog is I talk a lot through it with little action. For instance, in the previous post I mentioned writing in a different genre, preferably love stories or that which is not nationalistic. But for me to write stories of affection between a man and woman, I need to experience it first hand or indulge in something interesting. Sadly, my thirty years of existence is a big bore with nothing invigorating. I stuck to the apparent boredom because it is interesting to me and well within my comfort zone. Anything I write about the state or nation or any larger-than-life topic lies in the realms of assumption with nothing directly attached to it. The phases of lying in the higher planes of imagination without living in the moment is what constitutes the stories of the blog. When you are alone and gives your mind a free-ride, you assume a lot outside your circle of influenc...

                  My actions, thoughts, dealings, discussions, emotions and everything related to me are an open book and fully transparent. Everyone is entitled to a public life - that which is captured by the public eye and a private life - behind the four closed walls. A general person balances these two by living half time public and half time private. A celebrity who complains of privacy lives 70% of time public and 30% private. Few noble souls goes beyond this and achieve 90% public living. If there is anyone who is living on 100% public glare all the time, it is me. I have been living as such since the last decade or more. According to my own definition, public living is that kind of life which is always under spotlight, which is spotless or without any blemish, which is morally correct, which is generally accepted, which is inspiring to be more, which is filled with good deeds, which is unidimensional and which is worth living. This...

                It has been some time since my last post has come out. Though there is no obligation that I should write frequently, I like to post every now and then. Call it my laziness, I am not able to do so for some time. Besides that, it is not like in the past when you are free to do whatever you like. Things have grown out of proportions to dangerous extent that I need to be circumspect and act carefully. I had been trading with risk since last couple of years or more. I am only able to live or make a living by dealing with this high risk factor. Life in cities is completely replete with risks. From the point you step out of your homes, no one is sure if one returns safely. To mitigate this risk, self-imprisonment for some period and acting with restraint can reduce it to some extent. But as I mentioned earlier, I am living this lifestyle since I got no other choice; there is no way out; never coming out of the loop or escaping the gri...

                      I am finding myself in a soup recently. At least one should be aware that he is going to land in such troubled waters. In the over-enthusiastic phase of landing in a good job, I over did things. Initially, for getting settled, I worked far above the range of sustaining over a prolonged period of time. I worked for temporary benefits of pleasing everyone and after a certain period became exhausted and stressed out. This is the reason for my present day sorry-state and I must concede it is a big mistake on my part. Mistakes are generally made everywhere and it is this experience that teaches a person and leads him to a state of refined living. The initial missteps needs to be rectified when another such situation arises.                        In another v...

                           Well, the regular routine is filled with lot of activity these days. Since the past few months, I have been working with religious tenacity. The consequence of these actions is I has entered another burn-out phase. In the midst of all the burning out and grinding, I miss the purpose sometimes and just go through the routines mechanically. All these acts should not be for mere salary. Though salary is important there must be a higher motive as well. Among the many motives including writing this blog, one of the motive which keeps me amused as well is teaching. Teaching or giving a session works for me and I work for teaching.                            While going through this line sometime back, I ...