Few Necessities and Insights on Building a Great Capital

                  Talk is always cheap. One of the downsides of writing this blog is I talk a lot through it with little action. For instance, in the previous post I mentioned writing in a different genre, preferably love stories or that which is not nationalistic. But for me to write stories of affection between a man and woman, I need to experience it first hand or indulge in something interesting. Sadly, my thirty years of existence is a big bore with nothing invigorating. I stuck to the apparent boredom because it is interesting to me and well within my comfort zone. Anything I write about the state or nation or any larger-than-life topic lies in the realms of assumption with nothing directly attached to it. The phases of lying in the higher planes of imagination without living in the moment is what constitutes the stories of the blog. When you are alone and gives your mind a free-ride, you assume a lot outside your circle of influence. Rather than doing it, you can lower your plane of thoughts, be realistic and indulge in some good company or a relationship which keeps you occupied. This metamorphosis can do me a world of good and brings me out of the pleasurable addiction of nationalism. What will happen if I don’t think about the CM, PM, politics or the society ? Nothing and nothing if I think as well. Leave about the nation, the good old Indians never think beyond the compound wall of the house. I wish I can get some of their selfishness.  All that I had written till now is a result of the thoughts that wander in my mind. I cannot fake with my writings which are true inheritance of my state of mind. What can be inferred is – I had to think different, experience different in order to write something different. 

                     I deviated from the correct path way too much and now the severity has grown to the extent of beyond correction. No psychologist can counsel me or bring me into the real world. Imagine the life of a nerd who never till now talked or spent some quality time with a female. Lack of privacy compounded my in-built problems of dealing with opposite sex which does not come naturally to me. I need to manufacture, shape-up and practice to get into the groove. he purpose of every person is to find the true inner self and act accordingly. It’s a self help if we get the answer for ‘Who am I’ or in generic terms - ‘clarity’. Because you are made for it, you need to do the right thing even though it is perceived as wrong. One cannot deceive the true self and constantly lead a life for pleasing the public. In the name of sacrifice, you cannot sacrifice yourself. A kid that I am, my purpose would be to learn the art of living and grow up in age. I am a spoilt kid and my life is in complete mess. I never acted in a way that which is good to me and always played into the hands of public. All my well-wishers and almost everyone in the last few years are on my back to get engaged. May be it will fix my life and bring some stability. A spoilt person operating may produce undesirable outcomes. I still doubt if my presence is good for the nation. The point is, if I can only act it will be much better than all the talk or ramble. Eventually, I can put all my efforts, march forward and even if I am not still engaged, I am more than happy to remain as such.

                   Speaking of the needs,  I am marching ahead like a soldier without any pause. This has been the case since past many years. Rotating between the countries has only increased my work load since I had to work in both the nations. While I am in U.S, the people of India calms down or relaxes and while I am in India, U.S lowers the guard. But the person who is doing this has no respite and has to always keep the tempo high. Nations must learn to be self-sufficient and live independently without any deals with other nations which will make life easier. Even if you make a deal it must be mutually beneficial without taking advantage of the other. This year it has turned out to be a constant nightmare. I lived 5 years of my life in this 1 year itself working beautifully and regularly. No one will lead such pathetic life. While I had been through all this, I would still be targeted to work hard, never sit and such harassments.All I need is a good break away from the people in a hideout where I can cool-off. But the driving force behind working regularly is the financial necessity. 

                    After doing tremendous service, I can at least expect monetary benefit from somewhere to make my ends meet which has also eluded. The government also failed in its promise to put 15 lakhs in my account. It has been two years since note ban and notes were vanished from my account too. Quite figurative and is there any relation? Its not for what reason you disburse the tax money but giving it to the most needy matters the most. It also applies to all the cities, places I worked, all the countries I worked for, all the beneficiaries of such work and most importantly all the common people I worked for, who all owe me a settlement. Instead of thinking in that direction and helping me out, there are people who want me to go into debt while meeting my expenses, take loans and plunge neck deep while trying to repay. When a person is operating from an important position there will be a lot of expenses for continuing the work and maintenance. At least I need to be reimbursed of theses operational expenses. Its like doing the service, working in a job to earn money to continue doing service. The problems are all compounded without a simple equation - to do charity, you need donations. I only hope that, if at all any good is happening because of me it shall not stop for want of money.

                 Not everything I go through is without support. I am surprised by the belief of few people in me. All my life, I heard men saying –‘keep it up’ when they identify some work as worth praising. This is also one of the most terrifying phrases to hear. Because after remarkable efforts in some work, one expects to ‘keep it down’ and go easy, not carry on the momentum and make it larger. But a comment like ‘keep it up’ or’ ‘up the ante’ will make you nervous of the hardships and expectations. Incidentally, these feedbacks became stepping stones to climb the stairs and reach the next level till I reach the top of the skyscraper. I think I had reached the highest level of my work and it is not possible to ‘keep it up’ from here. I never believed in myself that I would become so big but it is the belief of these men that driven me this far. All the while, I also came across people who outrun me or outwork me and it is their efforts that sustained me this far. I always feel a bit jealous at those who work more than me but they had their own good intentions and reasons to do so and who lift me up when I needed the most.

                While my personal and financial needs were never completely met, at least my need to find a job and earn a living is met. Though people from different backgrounds supported me, there is no one like your own people who can breathe a new lease of life when you needed the most. In the journey of swimming from one shore to another shore, you try hard but still you drown before crossing the line. It is those who pull you out and gets you to the other shore that matter the most. I precisely received that kind of help which gave me something to look forward to in an otherwise dark life. Though I am physically settled in my present city, I am more attached to the home city. It is their collective aspirations that must have taken the form of a small favor and gave me a glimmer of hope. Keeping their contribution to my story apart, my contribution should also be there to their story.

                 The home city, which is well known, became the capital post the division of united A.P. But the construction of capital city is still progressing at a slow pace with much to be desired. Though moving at its own pace, the outcome should be nothing short of magnanimous and monumental. It is the historical significance and a harbinger of the future that both defines it will happen that way. Tracing the significant history, when A.P. is a part of united Madras state, all the immigration of Telugu people happened to the present day Chennai city. The contribution of the Telugu people in the evolution of Chennai is significant. The great city is built equally by both Telugu and Tamil people with utmost love for culture and language which share commonalities even today. After the state reorganization, A.P. is formed with capital as Hyderabad. Once again, people from all parts of A.P. came to the capital and played an important role in its development over the years. The part played by the non-locals in building the new Hyderabad can never be downplayed. The people of A.P. who played a major role in the progression of two capitals for decades and centuries are still outsiders in them. Again there is a new state created and a new capital - Vijayawada. Now, an opportunity came knocking the door to build our own capital and it should be seized with both the hands to build a people’s capital which should upheld the pride of all those living in the land. It should symbolize the strength of our people in our own land who are making contributions in every other place. This should be a collective effort and the ownership belongs to everyone not an individual or an entity. United A.P. has been the growth engine of the nation for past many years and it must also lead by example in building future-proof places to live which can be a precursor to the coming days of modern India.