Three Deteriorations To Be Resurrected, Five State Elections.

            One of the keywords based on which I lived till date is – Priority. My life is not absolute or ‘me alone’ but shared. I cannot afford to live a complete life of my own without giving space for someone more important to co-exist and live. Whenever you work on multiple tasks, you work in the order of priority. When this priority is skewed, you will complete the tasks but end up giving wrong results. Without following the priority, the process is defunct and when the means is wrong, the end product you are building is also not a correct one.

             In the same way, one needs to live by taking everyone’s lives into consideration, prioritise the importance of each life, prioritise the way of living and over a time build the correct product. I don’t want to disturb this priority and build something else. I don’t want to lead a ‘bulls run’ and kill everything along the way. Only the product which is built right should cross the finish line. All the faulty products or anything else should be discarded or not allowed to built. When you ask me what do you want – 1. Me 2. We 3. End Result. I always go for ‘We’ along with some simple end result. Not a bullish ‘Me’ along with a great end result.

              Controlling the personal glory and accommodating everyone important is a tough job. Living for personal-self is easy. Let us take the subdued, controlled, tough path and let everyone important live. This simple ideal practised at the atomic level can be taken up to the highest context. Mother nature is being destroyed by an out-of-balance ecosystem due to the bull-run and greed of the humans. We will save our mother when we are moderate in our approach and restrained in our expression.

             The job has no importance, its outcome has no importance when there is no priority in what you do. The past year and half has been a period of this kind of distorted priorities where I am in charge of a mad bull run killing everyone in the way. People need to accept me when I follow this prioritised living and not expect great adventures, achievements and end results out of a defective process. What significant will you achieve when you are killing those you crossed along the way.

             This kind of living has more to do with the environment you are subjected to which encourages, motivates a more unbridled lifestyle. You need to come out of this dangerous environment or don’t get egged on by the environment around you. I don’t concur with the notion – ‘I live and I alone live’, it should be ‘I live and let others live even if it is at my expense’. The days of this intense activity which has become a reason for unhealthy living need to pave way for a more prioritised living. I hope those days will dawn upon me sooner than later which will only bring some relief.

            This yearning for a balanced and prioritised living has come to the fore in the recent past since those in my inner circle are becoming prone to family feuds more often than not. I am concerned about the safety and well-being of the family or those who reside with me. I work selflessly for the people, society, country and world so much so that my family has to pay the cost of those misadventures.

            Everyone works for the people within their house but I work for those outside my house using those within. This has lead to severe fallouts within us and I am becoming insensitive to those moments of bickering. I am working for the outer world at the expense of my inner world. God should know the levels of such pathetic position and for how long I need to endure this without peace. It has to do with the gravity of the situation which has been heavy and ominous. I wish it is offloaded and peace prevail upon us. The only silver lining of the dark cloud is that the good work (if any) I am doing should come to the rescue of me and the family. This belief alone keeps me going in the hope of a better tomorrow.

             In another point of some deterioration, the pandemic has raised questions on what kind of a person I am evolving to be. It is a common interest of anyone to know the kind of person he or she is. I graduated from a junior fellow to a very senior fellow in the recent past. I might as well get a Phd post my fellowship. While there is nothing much to be embarrassed or ashamed of, one might take some note of a kind of person I am becoming.

            To give some rich background, I am like this with this background before I hit my 20 years of age. It went a full circle and I am here in the same way in my mid thirties. While I am remotely happy about this progression to senior fellowship after a long time and after many years of pathetic wretchedness, I am sad about my great name and fame going for a toss. If I can, I would like to live those lazy, irresponsible, mundane days once again to complete the package in this full circle.

             I am learning to never mind about going through bouts of embarrassment periodically at this full blown age. If you can see, age is just a number. Accept to get humiliated any time and live as if nothing has happened. Don’t let the embarrassment get to your heart. You need not always wear a cap of respect and be a respectful man. You can do wonders by being a shameless man as well. To tell you in short, I am evolving to be one such person. The amount of good fame in the world is constant. It hops from one person to another periodically. If good name is not in your fortune bucket, you will have to live through days of embarrassment, irresponsibility, recklessness. It is perfectly alright and one needs to live with it. We can be proud that we are taking all the dirt and sacrificed our good name for someone else.

             Another topic which I cannot hold without touching upon is – elections are being held in five states. While I don’t know the dynamics of few other states, I am scantily aware of West Bengal and Tamil Nadu. Coming to the neighbouring Tamil Nadu, who are our ‘massly’ class brothers, few unfortunate events have happened going into the elections. First, it is the untimely death of Jayalalitha after coming to power in 2016. Her presence would have altered the mood of the state in these past five years. Second, another highly charismatic person – Sri Rajanikanth withdrew from the promising campaign in the run up to the election. The state would have been a different story if both these leaders presided over the highest office for a lengthy tenure.

             There is clearly a good leaders drought in the state and a need to build leaders who can cater to the hopes and aspirations of Tamil people is the need of the hour. It would have augured extremely well to the state and country if man of integrity like Rajanikanth took over the reins and inspired Tamilians to live with a sense of pride. This weight of expectations has certainly weighed in on the health of Superstar. As they say, these unfortunate events will definitely act to write the destiny of the state in a much more glorious way.

             Coming to West Bengal, the state is really a hotbed, battle ground of elections– thanks to the Iron lady Didi. The state is apparently holding the most fiercely, keenly fought elections. This is the State, unlike any other, where an extraordinary 8-phase elections are taking place. Despite being a woman of little stature, the present CM is single-handedly carrying the entire state on her shoulders and an embodiment of the greatness of Bengal. What an exhibition of bravery and grit when she campaigned on a wheel chair despite sustaining a leg injury. This is the attitude to serve the society which everyone should learn from. Some ordinary person could have easily withdrawn from the scene but not Bengal tigress. The state is enjoying a great leadership and it is in the interest of the state that she wins another term.