Coronavirus Part 12, Going Crazy and Ominous Signs For The Nation

                 While I am writing serial blog posts on personal experiences and covid-19, it might look in some angles like I am crazy doing all this. It is crazy because nothing is real about this blogging. I don’t get any direct comment on the post. I lose a night sleep every week without getting anything in return. I lose many hours in thinking about the present, past and future posts. I assume all my readers as anonymous with no one giving any direct comment or feedback. I read through tweets of anonymous readers for indirect comment or feedback. This blog-writing in a way is a classic example of highest levels of hallucination or delusion – the author is anonymous, readers are imaginary, feedback or comment is indirect or imaginary, the effect it produces is imaginary and finally everything about it is a big imagination.

                 Hallucination in a constant recurrence mode is a psychotic disorder and needs to be treated by a qualified psychiatrist. When these hallucinations are steadily peaking as episodes of posts go by, I reach a new level of craziness which must have been observed by many outsiders. My mental health becomes disoriented lot of times and by virtue of Gods grace, I have been pulled from the brink a lot of times as well. The mental health, its balance, orientation are some of the prices I may have to pay for writing these weekly updates. I have been a patient of psychological disorders and receiving medication from the last 6 years or more. Rather than writing these blog posts, maybe I can try and write an article in news paper which will bring me closer to reality. I can do some good to myself if I live in the real world, interacting with real humans.

                 But there are two kinds of men lying there; the first kind is targeting me to destroy by labelling me as crazy. They are real bad men who influence me negatively and I wish that their nefarious designs will never succeed. The second category constructively criticise me and as a consequence, I bring great results after labelling me as ‘mad’. Those who defy the status quo or the existing convention are the ones who will be labelled as ‘mad’. The world calls some people as crazy because the rest of the world never really understood the crazy person’s true nature. Many famous personalities have gone through the same period and came out doing wonders. There is a dialogue in Telugu movie in which the hero says ‘I am little crazy, but it is well calculated’. Those who have that controlled and calculated craziness are often highly ambitious and achieve things that alter the dynamics of the world.

                 Steve Jobs once said of the crazy ones in his words – “Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes ... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status quo. ... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things. ... They push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the people who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.” He then kick-started his return journey to Apple and the rest is history. In fact, U.S. is full of people who are crazy and at the same time great achievers. The country oozes craziness in every inch and is a heaven for crazy people. Hope this controlled craziness of mine also bring good results to one and all.

                Like I feel depressed sometimes, many an individual also feel the same during some point or the other. You should control the depression and never let depression control you. This can be done through proper medication, talking to counsellors, family, friends and doing things which keep you in good spirits. Like everything else, this also should be tamed but should not be the reason for taking extreme step. A fine young actor taking his own life is the most ominous sign one can see for the nation. This simply denotes something is not going well for the nation.

                Looking at the covid-19 statistics, there are a total of 85.54 lakh infected cases worldwide and 4.55 lakh people dead. In the past week, 9.7 lakh new cases came up and 32 thousand passed away. More than 9.7 lakh new cases have been registered which is the highest surge in single week so far. U.S.A, India, Brazil, Russia are the ongoing hotspots for the spread of the virus. The number of infections is still rising week after week which means the world is not yet safe to move around. I talked about the galvanising effect which bought people to the streets asking for activity.  I had to confess that I motivated them at the wrong time. When they had to confine to the houses, they came out and the infected cases are now registering around 12,000 daily. This is simply something which can be avoided had I stayed indoors but I didn’t and contributed myself to the rising number of cases. I am partly responsible for creating chaos in the country by freely moving around at the time of lockdown. This is one of the factors which contributed to the lockdown failure in the post-mortem analysis. In an ominous sign, this is how my presence sometimes can be detrimental to the nation. While I must have helped in re-opening of the economy, it came at the cost of high rate of infections. Maharashtra, Tamil Nadu and Delhi continue to be the prominent hotspots in the country. Tamil Nadu government took the step to impose lockdown once again from June 19^th to June 30^th in Chennai and surrounding districts where cases are concentrated more. Delhi, which eased the restrictions during lockdown time is facing the heat now.

                Another ominous sign is the utter negligence shown by the bordering countries towards the territorial sovereignty of India. Nepal has re-drawn its geographical map by enlisting few places which belong to India as its own.  Nepal’s both houses approved the bill unanimously which also got the nod of the President. Next, there is China which is claiming Galwan valley in the Ladakh as its own. This resulted in the physical confrontation between the two sides and 20 army men from India made supreme sacrifice. It is the first time in 45 years that army suffered loss of lives in a standoff with China. While I would like both the nations to be supportive of each other and friendly, tensions are flaring at the border. It is highly important for India to maintain peaceful relations with all the bordering nations which include Pakistan, China, Nepal etc. It would be the failure of the foreign policy if it does not do so. It would save lot of precious lives while at the same time reducing the burden on armed forces from guarding against many bordering nations.