Daring Hopes and Few 'Poor' Insights On Recent Incidents


                     I have always maintained that I always play to the tunes of external forces that control me rather than I being in control of them. There are always multitudes who decide for me, act upon me, wish for me and try to make me a puppet in their hands. I had seen that it is these same public who have high expectations and hopes for me even when I see darkness all around. I work to the greatest of my potential taking many risks which cater to the short term or very near future that I cannot tell if I can sustain in the long run. All that you find is hopelessness and no optimistic outlook when you stare from where you stand. In the midst of this ocean of despair, one needs to be strong enough to swim persistently hoping for a better tomorrow. But I am under control of external forces. I live with this external hope of the people and slog through day-in and day-out believing that one day I would be freed from the bondage. To make this bold hope a reality, I need lot of things to fall in place and pave the way for my journey till the destination is reached, literally or otherwise.

                       In my own personal capacity, to the best of what I can see, I would be lying if I buff ‘All is well’. It is this scare of the notion – what if something goes wrong and to make sure everything is alright that drives me crazy to the extent of making me greedy. It is a natural expectation that this mad race of good work will encourage people to hope for my better future. There are a lot of people who make sure that ‘All is well’. One of the hopes is people wishing me that I get married and be all good, or that which is required for my age should happen. It is true that I am in the ripe age of marriage but honestly speaking I never hope that I will ever get married and lead a good married life. But I was chasing that impossible dream laid out by the people. I don’t believe I am good enough to marry but when everyone believes so why not try it. Feels like the world conspired for my marriage. Given the momentary life I lead, I do not imagine a stable future and never think that marriage is something that fits my bill or suits me. But the hope of public that the apt thing for my age should happen is what is driving me towards that goal.

                       I mentioned sometime ago that I took a rebirth and started my second innings after my return from U.S. third time. I never imagined I would be coming that far by starting my second innings but somehow got a new lease of life. But over the time, this second innings has grown out of proportions as it ages. From the time I returned home, I started slowly but gathered momentum gradually and going like a rocket right now. This mode of work has reached new heights and vicious patterns are being followed. Every hour asks for something heroic to be done and every day waits for something magical to be felt. I don’t even know if it is for good or bad and when this ordeal will end or a normal life is restored. It is not just me but I had taken people along for a ride playing upon their psyche and feelings. I spread the aura of a demon troubling , hurting, disturbing, torturing, agonising everyone. The Indians must have gone easy under British and Moghuls than with me. Many are waiting to see when this tyranny will end. I thank everyone else for getting used to these phases, accepting them as new routines and being tolerant of my actions. I hope no one is hurt so bad that I am affected by their curses or bad conspiracies. I still do not know if this entire thing is good for country. In some ways, they will be better off without me and may say good riddance if I go somewhere. Like now, when I am sunk in a pile of garbage, its hard to be there with some hope of getting out of it. I hope for my marriage, hope to free from never-ending ‘beautiful’ ordeals, hope to stop hurting people so bad. When you hope for so many hopes from a position of nowhere to lift yourself up to somewhere, it might be called audacity of hope, if I can borrow that phase. I am living with a audacity of hope right now and time will tell if it is a measured impartation of challenges I am currently subjected to which rescind gradually or uncontrolled troubles which spiral upwards exponentially. The former will lead to a brighter tomorrow and the latter to a downward spiral of gloomy glooms.

                        I lamented in the last post that 2018 is an eventful year which took a lot out of me. Apart from the work, I spent a lot of time with underprivileged kids – teaching them, playing sports, yoga etc. These activities are in my comfort zone but nonetheless have to be done to make a difference. I play a tiny role in the larger context of bridging the gap between haves and have-nots, To make a inclusive society everyone who is capable must take up a series of activities for the underprivileged kids. This has to become a mass movement which will bring a visible change. India is a country which is also synonymous to poverty and marginalised people. To the outer world, poverty is more a way of life but it can also be quantified. Though there are varying levels of poverty, 1 in 20 still lives in abject poverty with earnings of Rs. 150 per day. These numbers are far worse few years back. Mere words and inaction does not do anything to erase this striking feature but kind deeds with noble intent igniting chain reactions go a long way in making the lives better. Everyone must break the financial, educational, any other barriers and mingle with our brothers and sisters of lesser fortunate fraternity. Thanks to the efforts of many organisations and governments, the weaker and poorer sections are now more empowered, mobilised than before. Anything you do for them with determination and consistency will motivate to elevate themselves from their circumstances and change their outlook towards the society. It is the government that should create opportunities for them and the inner motivation of these people that should drive them to make use of these opportunities. These underprivileged are more motivated than ever before and it is up to us to provide them with opportunities and direction. You need to mend the iron when it is hot. It is not easier to implement which require a bit of sacrifice. A lot of work is still left to be done and all the well-intentioned people permeating boundaries and the richer nations can also contribute in lifting the nation out of the decades old ills.

                        Recently I visited Vishakapatnam in A.P. after a long time. The process of visiting a place got so much of traction to me and I felt it is a one-way journey with no return. I went to the extent that I triggered the point of no-return. I can be carried away a bit but there has to be a mechanism not to encourage further action but to calm down and stop. Nevertheless, this is all becoming daily routines. Keeping it aside, my visit went very well and was breezy. From the work that went into making it happen, I knew visiting places is very difficult and absorbing. When you are working in a movement, the best thing to do is make everyone involve in it and get them benefitted. You can involve people by visiting places and making them connected to you. When you are doing good work, its a good practise not to do in isolation. I wish I visit more places and involve many others whenever there is a possibility.

                        There have been some developments in my residing state - Telengana recently. Around a month ago, the state went to polls along with few other states. Though it is destined to contest the polls this year, in an apparent master stroke the government decided to go for early polls before 6 months of scheduled date. All the parties campaigned hard and few parties formed an alliance to defeat ruling TRS. But none of the plans worked out and TRS came out winning with flying colours bettering the previous poll margins. Though few of them are confident of TRS winning, all are surprised by the margin of win. The rule of CM and his ministers in the previous tenure seemed to have benefitted the voters very well with several novel ideas, programs and projects. The congress which gave the separate state in first place lost in both the elections in separate state itself. Those who tried and divided the telugu people for their own party benefit are still facing the consequences. Meanwhile I still don’t understand why the great leader and two-time C.M. spearheaded the fight for separate state for very long till he achieved it. It is a classic example of great shot but in wrong direction. Leaders will either make or break the nations or states. This able C.M. could have formed a party in united A.P. and went on to become C.M. of united state with all his grit if not directed it for division. When you have so much to offer, why limit it to a certain region and disown your own people of similar identity. You are mainly responsible and shares the sin with congress for dividing the state. If there is any absolution for this sin, then it should be looked upon that the division does not go wrong. Because it is responsible for division, Telengana should justify the bifurcation 200 percent. Telengana has won the elections and elected a good leader but it is not enough. The onus of developing budget-deficit A.P. also lies on its sister state. It should not rest till A.P comes on par with it even if it is about helping the state resourcefully, financially, politically and through any other avenue. Telengana should grow so much that it should spill over and become the driving force behind the development of residual A.P. state. This is the pattern which is observed in the first tenure and this good work should also continue in the next and subsequent tenures.

                      There is another surprising factor which popped up last month. After saffronising majority of the country and shunting out congress everywhere, B.J.P lost in all 5 states in last month elections. The party lost in 3 ruling Hindi-heartland states and failed to make a mark in 2 other states.  Congress did nothing spectacular nor has spectacular candidates but gained on the loss of B.J.P. Is the wave receding or are there any other reasons for the loss? Interestingly, events are turning out in a manner that BJP is giving a lot of ground to congress to encroach. A recent example is that of Rafale dealings which has been leveraged by congress very well. I don’t know how well Rafale bombs but the purchase of the planes itself bombed heavily. The congress president seemed to have mastered the art of poking and he is poking at all the right places which hurt the most. He is playing the role of leader of opposition very aptly. The leader of opposition should play a good villain torturing the hero and he is mastering it slowly.  A neglect initially, he seemed to have grown up to someone who needs to be taken seriously as is evident in the win in 3 states. The situation laid it out to him and he is capitalising very well. The government should have dealt so masterly that it should not have got caught even if it did something fishy. It is all part of the art to do some silly things and not get caught. You cannot do good things all the time and inevitably something like this need to find a place.

                       Another major pronouncement in recent times is the judgement by Supreme court against discrimination of women entering Sabarimala Temple. When a large number of devotees believe something as sanctimonious, mere mortal institutions like Supreme court should not interfere in the proceedings. You can overturn a rule or a law but cannot rule out the beliefs of the devotees who consider the place as divine and holier than thou. It should be up to the temple board  or the head priests to make these decisions since no one understand the place better than them.

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